Revamping...a lil more!

Okay things have been a little haywire in my life recently and I must admit that I haven't necessarily been on my game. For a few days I contemplated leaving my beloved weight watchers and last week due to a crazy schedule didn't make it to my meeting. Here me out on this one....I recently hired a personal trainer and he emails me meal plans each day, so I figured why do BOTH? It only took a few days to realize that his meal plans were far harder to stick with than my dear old friends at WW, so I guess I will incorporate his exercise aspects into my life and let weight watchers guide my eating. I must say I have gained a new fondness for the gym. I'm happy to say that I enjoy conquering my 30 minutes on the elliptical (who ever would have thought), I loathe the idea of upper body strength training, but embrace the delayed onset of pain thereafter (I know call me a masochist). I'm sure when I go to my meeting today I will discover some sort of gain...and I'm okay with that. I'm just getting back into the game of working on me. However this is a journey and a fun one. I love how people at work ask me questions about food and exercise....even though I'm the heaviest girl on staff. I really enjoyed the day I made my ex a green monster...and now he talks about them all the time!!! This is a lifestyle change and I'm prepared to embrace it for life.

So I've been having a very hard time with my food lately. My ability to control my desire to eat super unhealthy food is little to none.

when it goes up....it all falls down :(

Ok at weigh-in this thursday I experienced my first weight gain. I knew it was inevitable. We all have bad days. At least it was a small one only .4 pounds. I can really be angry or disappointed I'm just ready to make it disappear. I know weight loss is NOT an easy task.It requires a lot of hard work and I'm willing to put that in. This just a minor....minor...setback!

on the up and up literally

I'm a tad sleepy so I'm going to bang this post out quickly so I can take my nap. I have my appetite back. YEAH!!!!! (kinda) Now I just wanna eat every freakin' thing in sight and I'm uber scared that I'll have a gain at weight in tomorrow night. Jeez that would piss me off. I guess I'm moreso just happy to be back at my old self. I had a great workout today. My work schedule has been everything but normal lately so it seems like my meeting dates keep changing but hopefully Thursday will be my new and solid meeting date. Wish me luck for tomorrow night.

A not so victorious victory

Well we all know that I had a crappy week...and without delving too deep into the royal life that is princess valecia's let's just say it got FAR crappier after I wrote my last post, but this morning I did experience ONE high point. I had a 4.6 pound loss at WI this morning, but I'm not happy about it. It came about from stress and complete lack of appetite and that's just NOT the proper way to do it. I'd prefer the good old rule of hard work and calorie cutting. I guess I can't complain a loss is a loss especially a major loss like that. Hopefully next week will be better...WAY better!

the downhill spiral

Ok after all that hard work on this relationship. I must say me and my "loving boyfriend" have parted ways for the final time and *sigh* it's so hard. It's actually wrecking my diet. I just find myself really not hungry and I cant workout on an empty stomach some people can but I just can't I wont last long...5 minutes...TOPS! Yesterday I bought myself a new phone to make myself feel better before work. When I got to work I had a bowl of chili at 6 pm and realized that was the first thing I'd eaten all day. Unfortunately it is was the only thing, cause theres this ever present queasiness in my stomach right now....I know it sounds strange but I get physically ill w/ heartbreak..LOL my body isn't handling this too well but the rest of me is okay mentally I'm taking the good with the bad. To push myself I came up with a little project. I am having a professional photoshoot in 2 months. It's something I always wanted to do and I want my workout to really show when I look at those pics. I know it sounds weird. I felt compelled to write a lil something since I've been MIA a few day *muah* take care....the princess

You know what???!!

I just remembered why I loved working out so much. For me it was always hard to get the clothes on and get there but the workout itself was always great and the feeling after is always phenomenal

Activity points Today: 5
40 minutes of Random treadmill (ranging inclines and speeds includes warmup and cool down)=251
13 minutes manual level 2 elliptical (includes 3 min. cooldown)=114
20 minutes of strength training= lower body focus
Feeling: Great

Here goes nothing......

So if any of you actually pay my posts any attention I spent most if not all of April focusing on my eating habits and I must recap and say so far so pretty freaking good. (oh btw) I did have a one pound deficit this week at weigh in yeahhhh me (I'll take any and all deficits no matter how small:)So now that Happy May is here I will be focusing my efforts on activity and workouts. So tonight I put my head on the pillow with my cute pink nano sitting close by my kicks and workout clothes. I will be heading to the gym in the AM. Honestly I'm kinda scared. I remember there was a time when I lived and breathed the elliptical. Now....I will be starting all over, and I hate the feeling of being the fat girl that breaks into a sweat immediately and can't last on the machine long. I do like however that I have a better understanding of the weight equipment than most men...LOL (Gosh its great to have big brothers!) Wish me luck..this should be grueling, excruciating and well worth it!

Things I love......

I was just taking a moment in time to stop complaining and start just liking, accepting, appreciating, and loving different things in my life:

* I love how my body is responding to better food, and more activity

* I love how much more energy I have in a day

* I love LOVE Luna Bars in Nutz Over Chocolate, Chocolate Peppermint Stick, and Caramel Nut Brownie

*I love that I'm not giving up

*I love that I've accpeted that my weight loss will NOT be an easy thing

* I love green smoothies, green monsters and whatever other term you wanna use for them

*I love the after-burn and delayed pain after a hard workout

*I love discovering new things (i.e. Whole Foods Market, Trader Joes, Green Smoothies, Fage 2% with Honey, and so many different kinds of salads)

*I love me........and....

*I love those who chose to take this trip with me...Thanks so much *muah*