- I wanted to lose weight, but I was happy being a plus sized girl. Honestly I have no real life desire to weigh less than 185.
- Most of my followers were past 185 headed to even smaller numbers and I felt lame for not wanting to weigh less than that.
- Real life got in the way.
- I didn't have the stick to it ness
- I was lazy about the weight loss therefore what did I really have to blog about?
- I made myself take on this "I am more than just a number" train of thought that made me actually not give a crap.
Which leads me to the final one.
- I honestly stopped trying
I am now 29 years old. And as much as I rushed around feeling as if I I had all the time in the world to do all the things I wanted with 30 looming around the corner.....I simply don't. I want happiness, and a family and if I don't control my weight, and health which means controlling my PCOS I will never have babies and never be a mother. Even though I have always claimed I didn't like kids honestly that piece of reality is earth shattering to me. So today I begin the change. Because I want to. Have to. Need to. It's way past time I face the situation. The situation is of course......me.
I've always admired your strength and conviction in realizing that you are fierce - no matter what. But, your will to forge on in your HEALTH journey, is that much more inspiring. You got this, girl!
ReplyDeleteAwesome post. And...definitely inspiring. Half the battle is being completely honest with yourself and you went beyond that and were honest with us! I, too, have had complacency around 160 lbs and the thing is I KNOW I want to be about 30 lbs smaller! I'm finally back on board and seriously kickin it back in gear!
ReplyDeleteI'm happy to see you blogging. Don't think about the number...it's all about being healthy and feelingyour best. You can achieve anything you want girl!
ReplyDeleteGlad you're back. Great post...it really is all about being healthy and happy :)
ReplyDelete