Addictions (not for the hungry or faint hearted)

I believe that every person that has an weight problem has some sort of addiction. Some food that is there trigger food. I have many. Some have been there as long as I can remember, others are things I picked up along the way. So let's get the list started shall we?????


I think the pic and the happiness on my face speaks for itself. I have a hard and I mean HARD time leaving the grocery store or any store for that matter without one. The combo of smooth milk chocolate and creamy peanut butter makes more sense to me than PB & J (don't get it twisted I love those too:) Yep 230 of my calories go to these sinful decadent treats and honestly it's hard to stop.

Then there are the other ones I picked up in life. Working as a high end conference center server I gained a love for all things exotic and decadent. Things I could only have at work or at super great restaurants rarely or just things I didn't ordinarily eat the number one vice was paella.

Paella (IPA: [pa'eʎa]) is a rice dish which originated in the Spanish Autonomous Community of Valencia near lake Albufera, a lagoon in eastern Spain.[1] Spaniards consider paella to be one of their national dishes.
There are three widely known types of paella: Valencian paella (Spanish: paella valenciana), seafood paella (Spanish: paella de marisco) and mixed paella (Spanish: paella mixta); but there are many others as well. Valencian paella consists of white rice, green vegetables, meat, snails, beans and seasoning. Seafood paella replaces meat and snails with seafood and omits beans and green vegetables. Mixed paella is a free-style combination of meat, seafood and sometimes beans.
The varieties of rice used are usually Calasparra[2][3] or Bomba[3]. Other key ingredients include saffron, and olive oil.
This dish has gained considerable popularity throughout most of the Spanish-speaking world, including the Hispanic regions of the United States. It also enjoys moderate popularity throughout Western Europe.


Thanks wikipedia!
anywho, this, Coke Zero, bruschetta on petit toast, giardineria, a great steak, homemade buttermilk ranch dressing, anything that combines mint and chocolate, a good Merlot, a great chardonnay, good Mexican food, and just unabashed food decadence are my trigger points. They immediately bring me to this happy, euphoric state. And then afterwards..it all comes crumbling down.

That's when I start to think and ask myself questions: How long do I really want to be the fat girl? How long do I want to buy my clothes in the higher end of the plus size section? How long do I want to have aches and pains that just aren't common for a 27 year old woman? How long do I want to be UNHEALTHY???

So I struggle with those addictions everyday, because they are the gates that separate me from my healthy body. I'm trying to move closer to my new found loves: roasted zucchini, portobella mushrooms, and eggplant, strawberry yogurt and granola, Greek salads, and egg whites with salsa. My addictions wont stop me from being as thin and healthy as I want to be they will just make getting there that much sweeter.

Not bad for a day off

So I have a new management schedule and oddly enough I have thursdays and fridays off now. Personally I think that's a pretty sweet deal. My eating habits are normally the worse on my days off. Actaully they are not that bad but I always have to find something to occupy my time so I wont randomly, mindlessly eat. I know that thing should be exercise, but today *sigh* it wasn't I was pretty busy though. BREAKFAST:
1 poached egg
1 piece of whole wheat toast with SF strawberry preserves
2 slices of Jenni-O extra lean turkey bacon
5 strawberries with 2 oz. 2% cottage cheese and splenda


That pretty much held me over for the morning I put enough protein in that meal to tide me over until I got the house clean and ran errands.


LUNCH:
turkey sandwich w/ lettuce, tomato, hummus and stone ground mustard on WW bread
1 claussen pickle spear
1/2 cup of Progresso Vegetable and Rice soup


Not much to say here wasn't in that hot of a mood so I took a nap after lunch. I decided to cook dinner. Actually I cook on all my days off. I have to. If my BF was in charge everything would have lard in it. So I made.....

DINNER:
Baked chicken wings (I had 2)
red beans and brown rice (a recipe I found on sparkpeople)
and okra


I don't think I actually want a desert tonight I've just been feeling really blah so a glass of sugar free lemonade will do me just fine.

a quick update

So I have to be up early in the AM so I'll make this quick
Food:
Breakfast: Nothing (I know I know) bad me, but I slept in so doesn't it kinda even out
Lunch: Chipotle Chicken Burrito Bol- (Romaine lettuce, black beans, chicken, pico de gallo, corn salsa, and very light cheese and sour cream) and 1 glass of Coke Zero
Snack: Reese's Peanut Butter cups
Dinner: Brown Sugar Salmon, Brocolli, and Bob Evans Mashed sweet potatoes
Calorie Total:1,544
yep I'm done

The Check IN......

DIET
Today I went to "the pig" looking for my fave Ezekiel 4:9 bread *sigh* to no avail they got rid of it!!! I knew there was a reason I didn't shop there that often! So I was a lazy daisy today. I got up at about 11:30 am so after I left the grocery store and Sally's I had breakfast. (Yes I had breakfast at 12:30!

So Far:
1 slice of Butternut whole Grain 100% whole wheat bread (toasted of course!)
1 TB of Smucker's sugar-free strawberry preserves
1 egg poached hard (runniness is yucky)
2 strips of Jennie-O extra lean turkey bacon
So far so good, but the day has just begun there is still work looming @ 5. While in line the man in front of me picked up my kryptonite (reese's peanut butter cups) I almost got the shakes stopping myself from buying one, but I made it whew!
HAIR
So I just bought the products to begin my hair care regimen. Due to my workout schedule I will be sticking to the braids and wigs at least until June. However I will make a point to more frequently wash and condition the crowning glory that is tucked away underneath. I decided that what I will start with is a pre-poo on Sunday nights, a shampoo and condition monday and I will braid it then. I will apply a leave-in conditioner daily. We'll see what transpires from there.

MAKEUP
after my mini CCO haul on Tuesday I think I'll just get one product next week oh and I'm really thinking about getting the Monistat Chafing Gel as a primer I hear it works well for oily skin like mine but GOSH I'm really having a problem with the idea of MONISTAT ON MY FACE!!!! So I'm still holding out for the 260 to get my MAC foundation in the mean time I went around to all the counters and asked for foundation samples (I know that's kinda cheating) I liked Clinique's so much after wearing it tuesday I bought it, but now I'm falling in love with Lancome's Teint Idole Ultra in Suede 5 might have to get that too GOSH I will never get my security deposit if I keep shopping. I have to keep telling myself the move comes first! Oh and I plan on potting my UDPP sometime this week I'll show/tell you how that works out

EXERCISE
I swear I haven't been anywhere near the gym since tuesday :( I know I know I've just been plain lazy. I'll definitely will be there in the morning (gosh I just really hate the new January crowds).

P.S. I've been wanting to post more pics but somethings wrong with a) my new memory card or b) my drive either way the BF is outta town and he's the house techie so maybe I'll be adding some pics on Tuesday laterz!

the meaning of "the royal transformation"

Ok I'll be honest. This blog did start purely as a weight loss blog. but I had to acknowledge a few things and make a shift. I have MANY things to work on that attribute to my health. My hair, that I acknowledge very in frequently is probably damaged beyond belief while it's braided underneath whatever cute wig I find for the moment. I have went weeks without tending to my hair. (I know it's pathetic) That today does change. My skin is pretty good, because I always try to put my best face forward. So I'm pretty good about what I use on it, cleaning my makeup brushes regularly and having a good skin care regimen. And I must be honest no matter how much I work out I am HORRIBLE with what I eat. I have a reese's peanut butter cup addiction that just might get the best of me. and I snack too much on the wrong things. So from time to time I switch it up or perhaps I'll speak of all my health and beauy topics in one day. Either way it's time for princess valecia to make the changes with herself necessary to be a queen. And that my friends is what THE ROYAL TRANSFORMATION is all about.

for those of you who stopped believing.......

This helped me believe that BLACK LOVE STILL EXISTS

The aftershock

Soooo my boyfriend believes that he gets a WEEK to celebrate his birthday. I told him 21 year olds get a week to party. Thirty one year old such as himself get a day...maybe two. DAMN did we pack a lot in a day I'm sooo tired! My batteries died wish I had pics.

Yesterday I worked till 2:30 pm, came home, showered and changed and the adventures began. First we went to dinner at some lil cute Milwaukee diner he loves so much. Yeah my eating habits were SO NOT on point. We both had reubens with french fries. God I love those things:D I really miss not good for you food sometimes *sigh*

Next we moved on over to the bradley center for the Bucks game. Where the Bucks served up a whopper ass whoopin' to the Dallas Mavericks 133-99 I believe. I'm proud to say I didn't buy anything to eat(but that's because we shared a king size reese's peanut butter cups on the way there). Afterwards we headed out to meet his crazy friends for drinks. Which turned from let's get a few drinks to...."let's get completely smashed" Oh does my body feel it now. And somehow at 4 am we all were at a denny's eating burgers *sigh* yeah I know Not good at all, but I'll be back on track tomorrow. I'm fully aware that sometimes fun costs. They all decided to sleep over our place and in the morning we all took an impromptu trip to Chicago and I got home with just enough time to shower and dress for work. So yeah I'm pretty freakin' exhausted!!! Tomorrow it's back to the gym. Picking up where I left off.